The psychological problem I am dealing with

The psychological problem I am dealing with is hard for normal people to understand.
The inner demon does not allow me to interact with people. Is the inner demon a part of me?
I am always afraid of making friends or start a relationship because I don't understand or don't want to understand what they talk about. I usually get bored quicky with any thing I start that is why I am always afraid of starting anything new.
Good citizens does not care about  emotions. They like to talk about kindness and helping one another and they sometime show random act of kindness not because they want to help people but because helping make them feel good about themselves and superior than other. Nothing in the society actually interests me. I see many holy people around me talking that jealous is bad and hate is evil but they are the one who are full of ego and pride. What is it?
One part of ourselve says jelousy is bad and other part is jealous of many things?
Are we really individual or do we have many personality?
Whom should I blame for this?
Why human being is made with so much error and how to overcome this problems?
Will God help us or the Scientists?
Why do only few people evolve and other suffers?
Why are we addicted to suffering?
I have so many why without any answer.
Why do I seek for answer is another question.
Now I am thinking why did I wrote what is in my mind. 😅